Today has been a surreal blur for me.

I've never felt this way in a very very long time. This morning was such a great blow to me. I never expected this to happen. Guess it was just a matter of time. Just that when it happened, i just couldn't control myself. I just totally lost myself. Tears started to well up. My head started to feel hot. At that instant i realised i was at my breaking point. Never did realise that i would be overcomed by all this. Wow...i guess this was the first time i cried in school. It was unexpected. How i wished at that moment to give everything all up. It was just too much, too big a blow for me to handle. I dunno how to fix this. I'm in such a mess. My emotional breakdown was unsightly.

But it just shows how much i love SC. I didn't know it meant so much to me to make me break down in tears. I love SC and everyone in it...