In the midst of it all

It's almost hilarious how i don't give a heck how i did for my exams. All the work that i have put in since primary school..No, all the work i have been FORCED to put in. And until now, i still don't see the point. Why must we goddamn study so hard and do the things that we dispise so much? Why must i succumb to what others say and be influenced by them? why can't i make my own desicions? I never wanted to be where i am now. If not for my friends, i would probably have commited suicide by now. I tried asking God,, but i believed he abandoned me, or rather i abandoned him. Why must we live under the expectatiosn of others? Fuck. I'd rather do nothing and be happy than do something i know i don't love. I seriously don't feel the pressure of promos or school or studying. At this point, i don't care if i fail any subjects or have a billion R-papers or if i even drop out of this dumb school. I just feel like breaking this glass ceiling and start earning my own keep. Fuck.

Standing on the rooftop tell everybody scream your heart out.