Kill myself

I should be studying.

These few days of muted sunlight has been bliss =]

It feels great to be warm and snug up in my thick jacket. Spent yesterday doing basically nothing except staying in bed the whole afternoon. The cool rain air was fantastic too. I think i'm going to do that once i'm done with pw. Then probably head down to the gym again this evening. I wish i can do this everyday, and be home schooled or something. this way, i don't have to drag myself out of bed so early in the weekdays. Singapore education system rocks. Lucky VJ has so much emphasis on public holidays and festivities. That way, there's more excuse not to go to school. This friday's teachers' day. I think it's gonna be fun, Cuz i'll be spending the time at home =]] I hope it rains on that day too. Then i'll be freaking over the moon =]] Gym on a cold rainy morning is awesome too.

Renee says i have some issues. Ya, i think so too. I seriously need to get my head together. What the hell am i doing in school? What am i doing in church. All these seem to be a waste of time. I could be spending the time doing other stuff like gymming or earning money. Sigh, me and my screwed up thinking. I guess i'm kinda growing up..i hope. I keep having ideas of moving out and getting a place of my own once i start earning and having a stable income. It's so near yet so far away. I wanna earn money to buy all the stuff that's been on my shopping list for a long time. New handphone..new bag..Contact lenses.. a new makeover for my room.. Sigh, if only i had all the money in the world.

My freedom, my money and my mummy

The Cabinet

School would be hell without you guys =]

What lips my lips have kissed

I seriously don't feel like studying anymore. Like, what's the point? After promos, there's As, after As there's Uni. It's never fucking going to end. Why not just start working now? Sigh, maybe coming here wasn't really such a good idea.

What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why,
I have forgotten, and what arms have lain
Under my head till morning; but the rain
Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh
Upon the glass and listen for reply;
And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain
For unremembered lads that not again
Will turn to me at midnight with a cry.
Thus in the winter stands a lonely tree,
Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one,
Yet know its boughs more silent than before:
I cannot say what loves have come and gone;
I only know that summer sang in me
A little while, that in me sings no more.
- Edna St. Vincent Millay

i will miss you till my mind goes crazy