I'm always at a loss when it comes to studying....I guess that it just the norm for pupils like me...

I really hope to achieve my expectations and everyone else around me because if i don't, then i'll just die...

Just watched Planet of the apes on DVD. It was really nice..really regret not atching on the day it came out in the movies..which was like how long ago?!?

Never have i been so desperate for something before in my life....I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY want my ipod nano!!!!!! everyday i look at the picture of it in my room and i make that my motivation to do well in my studies....Mum said if i did well in this MYE, i shall get an ipod nano...but what the heck....even if i fail my exams, i shall still get what i want. If i set my eyes on something, i'll get it no matter what (with the exception of my studies =P)

Hmm...suddenly have the urge to drink some espresso with hot chocolate and continue studying after that...hahax XD

BYE!

Yes, there is a goldmine in every place.

That was todae's english paper. It was a killer paper and i was too bushed to do it properly. The first paper was at 8000-9450. Compo. F.Y.I, i wrote question no. 3. I took the risk by writing the argumentative one. Here's what i found out. I tend to prefer writing about factual things rather than sort stories. It's more 'me'.

The compo was rather appealing but on the other hand, the compre was ruinous. Just clinging on to the hope that i can get a 26 or above for compre... P.S., I have a feeling that mdm endang set the paper...

Still a long way before i can finally have a worry-less holiday.

Hm...noticed some changed reaction or should i say behaviour of the people around me given my circumstances..nvm abt that...

Oh and yea....to a certain someone....please do what you're upposed to do and don't make me your servant...for goodness sake...you're 14 and you still don't know how to take responsibility....SHAMELESS!

Thanks loads for all those that put in effort for the investiture =P

1 more day guys...we pull through this then we can all just focus on our mid-years!!! I just love all my sec 2 and 3 SLs. Really appreciate all the tremendous effort that they put into this event to make it happen.

Thus, i dedicate this post just for SLB people XD

Thanks for all the countless nights you come and help out, thanks for helping to plan out every little detail for the event and most of all, thank you all for just showing up for the rehersals and cooperating with us. It was a mistake to make this a draggy rehersal and pissed everyone off real bad but really thanks for tolerating and just enjoy tomorrow. It is yur day XD

Another day passes by and i'm wasting my time.

This morning had remedials and i managed to catch up on my school work abit. Blardy Physics test..must be lisa set one...so damn difficult..but i know my mistakes liao and hopefully, can do better for the retest on monday. Chemistry, unfortunately, was totally insipid. Liveless and dull. Sleeping throughout the lesson. Can't really remember what we went through.....

Rehersals after that was crap. I really don't feel like penning this down but i have no choice. Some people are just so self-centred and only care about themselves. I hope that he will realise his mistakes and amend it because if he dosen't, then i really wonder how i'm gonna work with you for another year. Hopefully, we don't go into the same JC..If not, it'll be hell for me. Is this how you treat others around you? Look at it from a different perspective would you... God dammit... Sec 4s aren't really helping...i mean i don't expect you in helping to plan with us but i certainly don't appreaciate the childish complaints you keep giving us. As for the sec 2s, We're really sorry but you've gotta try to understand.. It's eally hard to please the sec 4s and the teachers and you guys at the same time....We sec 3s are sandwiched in between everyone. And it's not helping if someone keeps being a sore in the eye for everyone. So please....It's 4 more days and we really need to try to tolerate each other and all work together... I noe i'm contradicting myself but who cares...That's just me..Too Bad!

On an even darker note, Exams are just 6 days away and i've not even started my revision...It'll be a miracle it i can even get a B3 for one subject. So many many things to study and i don't even know where to begin.

Oh Lord...please help me...i'm so stressed up right now..

As the name suggest, i'm sick..... Not physically sick but i'm sick because of an obsession...

I just love the thought of drinking thirst quenching chrysanthemum drinks in the sweltering hot afternoons. The thought just soothes my mind...Nvm..just talking crap.......

Tomorrow is a Saturday but sadly, i've gotta wake up in the insanely wee hrs of the morning. Remedials?!? Why do we have them on Saturdays?!? No one is awake in like 6 plus in the morning...especially on Saturdays... Have to attend Physics, Chemistry and Maths remedial...i really wonder how to survive tml...today during chem lesson i was like an undead acolyte...So sleepy....I couldn't concentrate on Mr. Tan the whole lesson but luckily, i read up on salts and bases before the lesson =P

Investiture just round the corner...i've got to run on midnite oil now...hopefully, can wake up in time tml...

-OUT

Been a little mixed up lately.....

SLB taking up the majority of my time. Investiture coming in 6 days time; finally some time to rest and concentrate on our mid-years.

Yea! Got my letter from the government stating that i can officially go and collect my ic le...so unfortunately, i have to go down to make my ic during the exam period...

There was a basketball match btw serangoon sec sch and our school...we won.. But someone took a footage of the teachers gone mad and it was in a way hilarious XD

Basically blogging for the sake of blogging...nothing much i need to announce to the whole world 'cept that homework is piling and stress is stacking down on us...

Oh and guo wei's birthday is in like 55 mins time...so here's wishing you a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks once again for being there without fail last year and also remembering those times when i went to yur class in the mornings before assembly.....How we shared the same room in prague and the memorable plane trip....ENJOY THIS DAY!!!!!!!

You'll be getting a surprise soon =P

Mid year are about 2 weeks away and i hope i can achieve my goals this time...

I'm pinning all my hopes on the up coming mid year. I really really hope i can achieve to get all my subjects at least a B4 and above...i've lowered my expactations like seow already...

Hope all the hard work i put in won't go to naught...i've studied so so so hard for this exam and i must achieve my expectations. If not, i'll be really really disappointed...

SLB is really eating up of alot of my precious time...how i wish i can just put aside everything now and just concentrate on my studies! My first priority is my studies now. After exams then i'll slog my guts out for SLB...just not now...choir's been quite 'dead' lately. Which is a good thing..give us time to study =)

I've got to learn how to draw out my strengths now...i don't realise that i've so many people i can turn to for my studies...i've got to make full use of the teachers and tuition teachers...ask for extra remedials and stay back in school to study...yes! I believe that if i can keep that up, i will succeed!

Start of term, i tried to blog almost everyday...but now cannot =(

Today had quite a boring assembly..as usual..Bored to death i tell you first...wad maths project?!?

Exams are like um, a few more weeks away and i'm still here struggling...i'm also quite a procrastinator..because i tend to push everything to the last minute...i have this'*tml then complete' attitude which i want to change but dunno how...If i continue this, then most likely i will fail most of my subjects le..

Elec geog is so difficult...curse those who said it was easy!!! Is it too late to change subject combination? If can, i plan to take cleopetra's lesson-elec literature. Heard Amanda Yap's classes are quite interesting, compared to Mr. Ho's.

Mrs Lim is teaching like a rocket with super high horsepower...already on the last topic-Functions. Chapter 9. It's sooo easy...Linear Law oso..She finished in like 1 1/2 days. Hope my maths can get good results this time round =P

Yes! i hate him...do you hate him?? yes you do!

Apparently, my last enrty caused a rather big uproar...one that i've not forseen...

Well, all i have to say to that person is whoever you are, you should know for yourself and that nothing is going to change. Even if i tell the whole world your name, nothing's going to change...so no point in doing that...i'll still continue to hate you and detest you.

I guess running away isn't going to help but heck...i just have no other choice...So if i see you next time, which is like 5 days a week, i'll be putting on an act in front of you. I won't regret my desicion and i'll still continue to shower you with abhorrence. I can't ask you to get out of my life i realise so i'll just try to ignore you the most i can. So here's where we go our seperate ways... I hope that you're aware that i can and will hold grudges for a long, long time...

Once my friend, Always my enemy- this goes out to only a certain people.

I really wish to pen down my thoughts without anyone commenting or giving unnecessary remarks...but i just can't..

I hate him.

Please stop coming. I beg you. Everytime i try to get away from you, i just concidentally happen to 'bump' into you again. It's just that we can't communicate. I hate your stinking personality and attitude. Your actions disgust me. I know that this is very mean but please. I Hate You! So get away from me once and for all! But wait...that is just impossible..

I really just literally go blank when i see you and although i don't show it on the surface, inside, i really just wanna kick your butt. Is this hate? I don't think so...cuz sometimes, i also feel sympathetic towards him...what in the world is this feeling called? Someone please save me. The only solution for me is to pretend. Wear a fake mask in front of you whenever i see you...because i cannot show you my true feeling to you...that i hate you...sad yet confused...If you don't understand, never mind...cuz i don't too...

I'm crumbling...

Is there no one who i can turm to for a pillar of strength? Who can provide me with a beacon of light to show me the way? I'm so tired...I once said that i enjoyed being piled up with work and stress but now, i admit defeat...I'm exaggerating by the way...but really...i can't take it anymore...My studies are falling like the first raindrop that falls to the ground...My grades are going like the leaves on an autum day-blown away just like that...I've stopped playing already...I'm trying the best i've ever tried...I've given my best..but still, i'm not able to achieve what i hope for...i don't understand...

Yes, there are people out there who can carry these burdens for me but they just don't know how...I don't blame them...I blame myself....I don't know how to give the burdens to them even if they are willing to carry it for me....To put it simply, i don't know how to ask for help when i need it...So u finally understand?

No words can really explain how i feel right now...no song can express my sorrow...i need a long break...but i just can't afford to break down now...there are people that need me...if u collapse now, i'll just be disappointing others..most importantly, i'm letting myself down..

Quoted:
"In a world filled with darkness, we all need some kind of light. Whether it's a great flame that shows us how to win back what we've lost, or a powerful beacon intended to scare away potential monsters, or a few glowing bulbs that reveal to us the hidden truth of our past. We all need something to help us get through the night. Even if it's just the tiniest glimmer of hope."

I need that one kind of light. So if you see me next time, it'll be nice if you could just show some kindness..it'll help. Maybe you might just be that glimer of hope i've been looking for...

Time now is 9.30 pm. Another half an hour to desperate housewives...argh...

Today had the choir workshop and it was very flustering...nvm about that...i hate to write long entrys...just know that it was a very good experience and very tiring at the same time...but i might say it was fruitful and got to ms fernandez a lot more..

I'm not going to this year's CHMA...please..so many people asking me.. Andrew's going though. Never really seen him perform before =P

Last thursday was my baptism..finally got through it..it was so terrific-ly fun and exciting at the same time. Actually was very nervous in the beginning but went into the water then didn't feel so scared le...sis rina was really encouraging..totally like the feeling of baptised =)

This is the month of April...never hear any1 talk much april fool's day this year..but never mind. Who's birthday in this month?? So now you know who to buy presents for =) Investiture just a few weeks away... can't wait for that..

Now have to really study and concentrate..no more busy with choir, so now have time to do A math and Physicks & Khemistrie =P