Argh.

I hate my life at this point. It's worse than depressing and sad.. Nothing can describe how i feel now. It's a mixture of sian-ness, anger, afraid, depressing. Ya. all the sad moods all within me at the same time. How i wish i was someone else now.

And i can't have fever now. Not now!!

I'm just super moody now and i've like tried all sorts of ways to console myself like there's a class chalet tml or God will always help you or Friends are there to share your burden. But it just dosen't seem to work. ARGH!!

What did i do wrong?
Why are all my lights disappearing?
Is there nothing left that i can do?
Why is this happening to me?
So many questions,
yet nothing can answer them.
So much mistrust,
yet i ask myself if i'm trustworthy.
I'm sick and tired of this.

Just so you know, i got a job down at serangoon. Pays a reasonable $4.50/hr so i guess if i worked like 4-6 hours a day for 4 days per week, i guess i'd be able to go on a pleasant christmas shopping spree this year.

i guess i'd best be planning what to buy for christmas Although i already have in mind who's not getting any presents from me.

I indulge myself in a good book nowadays. Like i can totally read for hours. I wished i could be one of those characters in the book i'm reading and just get away from my loser-ish life.

Argh. why did i ever join choir? It's ruining my life now. too late to quit now i guess. Whatever. lets get this over and done with.

Oh. and a list of my debts:
1) Ms tan-$10
2)Andrew-$7++
3)Danny-$8
erm. if i forgot pls tag on my blog to remind me.

There is a word that best describes me now.. It starts with an 'h'. I forgot what it was. It not only indicates that i am a horrid waste of a person but also somehow seems to indicate that i am fat.

Oh yea! Hypocrite

"I'm like the fucking firestone stores. Spare tires everywhere! Gosh, I'm huge!" - Philip Lee

Okay. today has been a long and totally not worthwhile day at choir. Time would be better spent doing my homework. or even better. Going out shopping!

Grace was there at vch today too...And also met aggie, xianhui and christina..After that then went to do some council stuff. Can't wait for real holidays to come. =)

Rawgh!!!

Yet another Hump-date treat with kenny. Super Funn-ness leh =)

Super happy today. Even though my day was ruined by choir before...i did not sign up for choir for what happened today..

Watched Step Up today and it totally rocked!! I love the show man!! Totally loved the soundtracks and the choreography. Just loved the show okay!!

Exchanged gossips with kenny today and found out super loads of juicy scandals! During the also ate like super fattening food. Like my lunch and dinner combined together..Argh..feeling super guilty now.. But the show was like superb la... Okay la!

Looking foward to more of these hump-date treats!

Totally love today besides the stupid choir and council in the morning....

=)

Okay. So totally in love with Limeade and lemonade now!

Choir and Council's on like tomorrow and so not looking foward to that. 1 word - BORING!

I'm having like a super money crisis now. I've never felt so dry up on cash for a very very long time neh!! Although most of the time i'm having money issues. As i have told my friends quote Money is a very big part of me, just like my friends and scandals quote I love money and i want more of it!!

Imagine what you could do with lotsa money. You could hire the best tutor in singapore and also play Lan non-stop. And the biggest advantage is that you can practically live in a shopping mall and shop there every day with friends!!! I'd give up anything to live that kinda life!!

Okay...What the hell!?! I just saw the choir schedule and realised that the Divertimento concert is on the 14th..Are my eyes playing tricks on me? It's like 2 days away!!! WTH!!! We are so not ready neh..at least I'm not ready...Usually i nid time to prepare for a concert u noe...Super stress man. The bloddy effing concert is in like 2 days time? Y no one remind me....Gosh!!!

I love my braces colour now. orange-y red. Yumyum. I love orange! That's why this post is in orange! Okay. Super random.

Love ya! Byes!

Yesterday was mad. like seeing mr lee chang hong at marina shopping that type of mad. Went to Zm's house with gh and played and played..Some people hor..very rich oso dun wan to say.. Hias. Zm's house was like astonishing and awesome la. Super rich hor..Then summore deny. Gh was talking rot the whole time..Half of the time oso dunno what he was talking. Haha..

Then today was Madness 2X. This time like seeing WE kissing JT in school that type of mad. Went out with serworks and chalk plus rayston. Super mad day! Went to eat some yummy gelato then ate some super delicious dinner at a hawker centre near Bukit Timah. At night then went extremely high at raiders and in serworks car. Wished the night would never end and Someone was on a feeding frenzy and the other was the king of noobie land! No hard feelings. You guys rock!

Went out to Raiders to play DotA last night and arrived hom at 11. I was using Zeus and i'm so falling in love with it. Me, Kenny, Bryan and Aaron playing against 4 other people sitting in the first row..They won..but we played for fun obvious...

Omg...Today's Pamugun was totally havoc..Argh...Me and colin came in like vomit during the solo...So wanted to kill myself..I just can't get that freaking 'F'.

Owells...going dota now. thats all.

Bleah. Sitting at home dotaing and acculmulating fats is so getting me into hell.

I hate fats leh....fats in excessive amount i mean...Such an eyesore..

Okay..i shall encourage myself to excersice more and finish up what's left of my homework from the creature teacher!

Gah..PH is chasing me with a whip in his hands..super uncanny la...

I'm starting to feel the jazzy cheesy feel of christmas already...NO..it's too soon...

Okay..Xmas is coming..who wants to go christmas shopping with me =)

31st oct...Shaun's birthday...sorry for the late well-wishes...well, so here's a post dedicated to you...Thanks for all the times when you allowed me to go to your house to play xbox, thanks for the time when you accompanied me to school every morning last time and thanks for tolerating my bitchyness and slapping me in the face to wake me up from over excessive bitching. Thanks man. No words can truly express my gratiture so here's a releasement of heartfelt appreciation from my heart! =)

Ms tan birthday coming up soon oso..buying her a card herher!

I think i need someone to help me keep my mind off someone else.