Shit, more secrets.

Breathe in, subside.

Getting caught in a gossip is a terrible thing.
Whether you're the victim or not, it doesn't matter.
But it's like a vicious web of doom,
Once you get caught in it, it hard to come clean.
You use lies to cover your lies.
Then it just gets worse.

I used to think choir was a shark tank,
but now, i can just float.
I'm sure time will heal the wound between us.
I hope =)

Yesterday's PE was super tiring. Especially the hold in push up position when the PE instructor doesn't know how to count properly. Bit pamela and renee are damn fit! Must be the kayak training haha. Now my muscles are like super sore..

This feeling of agony
Keeps surfacing when I see you.
This feeling of awkardness
is how I feel when you talk to me.
why can't things be like before?

I want to go back in time
so that i can change the past.
I want to stop living in this world of lies
and just go up to you and tell you the truth.
But i can't.
It's just impossible.
I really hope we can be like before.
I guess i'll be smiling to someone else from now on.

Close my eyes and let the waves wash away my troubles.
I wish I could just go back in time to that fateful day,
and just change everything.
then maybe things wouldn't turn out this way.
I had a chat with Renee today, she's an excellent listening ear haha.
Breathe in, subside.
thanks renee.


Now as I look back,
it was all a rollercoaster ride.
One that I'll not soon forget.
I hope all will be well between us,
because I love you,
and all who loves me =)

We went out to celebrate wanping's birthday. It was totally fun and something which i will remember haha! Here's the photo of the day =D



I guess there isn't enough happiness to go around.
It's either you or me.
I'd rather you.
After all,
we can't always have what we want.
I guess it'll be forced smiles the next time you see me.
I don't even know why i'm so sad and angry.
I'm sorry.

Ha, just some random musings. I'm okay really.

I'm so glad i could take a break from my double-life. I met bryan today and he looks different. It's the kind of diffence that makes you think it looks familiar. Haha, but i'm seriously glad i met him and talked to him. I felt so relaxed after chatting with him, like a load off my chest. Haha, then we para-ed and called kenny to bid him goodbye before he goes into seclusion in the woods of dhormond haha. Anw, aaron joined us while bryan was giving me econs lessons haha. Ohmy, i totally miss them so much! today was the first time i saw them this year. Haha then we para-ed some more..aaron and bitsy are totally pro! =) Then by a very peculiar twist of fate, we met roy. omgomg, it's very coincidental haha. I miss all of them..too bad kenny wasn't here with us =( haha but i'm grateful that i managed to meet bryan and aaron and roy. I love them to bits! Anw, good luck to bryan who's going back in on monday, aaron who should totally work more and stop slacking on his job, and kenny for going to fieldcamp tmr.. Haha. this has been the longest post since 352539829305 years. Till the next time we meet. hope it can be the 5 of us the next time haha =D

It's like wanping's birthday now. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANPING!!!

Troubles come and go like the waves.
But no matter what, i know that i'll be here.
As long as i feel pain,
I know i'm still alive.

Tonight, i can hear the crickets.
Tonight, i can hear my heartbeat.
Tonight, i can hear the silence in my heart.
You don't even know how much i miss you.
How much it hurts to say hello.
I love you and hate you.
It's dejavu all over again.

Every word he says is another stab in my heart.
Maybe i'm paranoid and insecure,
or maybe it's just another fiction of my imagination.
I've been living with a heavy heart for way too long
I cherish our friendship,
so please don't take it away.


On a lighter note,
Bitsy is back!
I miss his massage chair
I miss dancing
I miss dotaing
I've been waiting for your return
cuz weeks seem like years.
I know we'll be best friends forever.

Spring flowers are in bloom
as the winter clouds subside.
It is a joyous day,
a day worth remembering
for this day does not come by so often.

Haha, i'm really glad this week is coming to an end. Then again, there are the problems of the next week. I'll leave that to next week. yeah.

When you thought it was a fairytale all along,
I knew it has become a reality.
I'm so freaking confused.
And afraid.

I would give anything to read people's mind

In placid winter's night i lay,
as the two unite in forbidden love.
His heart yearns for its companion,
although oblivious to the reality.
Tonight i go to sleep with a restless heart,
as i sing the song of my wishful thinking.


Arts fac has a tendency to turn normal human beings into mentally unsound artfreaks *puts meatloaf on face*.

Sigh, if only you knew the heart wrenching truth.

If only you knew, how much i hate and love you.

I have this head-spinning, room-whirling-around-me kinda feeling today...it's so dizzy haha. that was so random.

Today was quite bittersweet..
I lay on my bed,
thinking about lotsa things that happened lately.
The good and the Bad.
And i listen to songs by damien rice
and my heart starts to ponder.
As the images strike my heart strings.
I feel like screaming at the top of my voice.
This moronic reality that i face with uncertainty and unfamiliarity
I guess we all have our emo moments, this i agree with sonya.
I need a friend.

Ha, i got this sudden surge or paranoia and pent up excitement that i need to release

I'm so stuck with binomial now and it sucks..so does econs and its problems..haha i think i'm ok with DnS, quite fun!

Crap, i'm in serious need of money haha..i totally love and hate money! I love it cuz i have power and i hate it cuz it will make me suffer! I want to buy so many things but no money..argh..this sucks. period.

& so i ponned church today simply cuz i woke up late, and missed my only time that i can be really close to Him. I did some wicked things yesterday and need to pray for my sins, but it was fun ytd haha =P Me and my black heart.

hha my post seem to get shorter and shorter. i wonder why.

I guess i'm mistaken..or maybe i'm just paranoid

Haha i uaually hate to upload pictures but i'm so bored now..

Sigh, to choose between since and arts is the worst desicion one can ever make..I guess i've come to a crossroad that will more or less decide my future..Haha i make it sound so big but actually i just dunno whether to take PCMH or HELM. Please know that i'm doing this entirely for the subject and not for some people.. If i take PCMH, i'm sure i'll definitely struggle with P and C. But if i take HELM, I'm scared of L..So basically i'm just scared haha. Argh..so hard to choose haha!!